Last week, my daddy and I had an argument in the comments of my Weight Watchers Week 2 update. Not really, but he made me mad. He can be so "by and buy the book".
Moving on... this weeks update is going to have a different flavor. My husband and I are watching House of Cards on Netflix. In Season 1, Episode 7 they showed a guy in his AA meeting. After this particular scene, I said, "Wow, I've gotta write that down and share it."
From House of Cards
The guy says "hello my name is" and gives the number of days since he last had a drink as 5,185. He said,
“The bigger that number gets the more that it frightens me, because I know that all it takes is one drink to go back to zero. Most people see fear as a weakness. It can be."
He goes on to talk about his job how he had to put fear in people and how he has to be ruthless. He then explains than in his sobriety he has to be ruthless with himself and use his fear because it makes him stronger.
"Failure is not an option. Like everyone in this room, I can’t control who I am, but I can control the zero.”
Well I'm not an alcoholic but that sure resonated with me. I wouldn't say that I have or have ever had a food addiction, but there are things I shouldn't buy or taste - in a one thing leads to another kind of way.
I should stay away from the peanut M&Ms. If I could be guaranteed that I wouldn't break a tooth, I could be in a peanut M&M eating contest. As a compromise to my lack of self control, I would buy the plain M&Ms. They lasted longer in the house. I still ate them everyday - just not all at once. Now I don't buy M&Ms at all. When I look at a package in the store, I shake my head and say to myself, "No way. You don't know how to act."
When I was very close to making the decision to start Weight Watchers, my husband came home with a pack of plain M&Ms for me and peanut ones for himself. I ate all of mine and then finished his while he was asleep. The next day, I went to replace his pack and I bought myself another pack. I inhaled them before I could even appreciate them. After that I said, "Now I have to start all over again." I wasn't counting the days like an alcoholic might, but I know it had been about six months since I last had any M&Ms and I was doing fine without them.
Here's the thing... I may not be able to control myself with M&Ms, but I can control myself without them. Whatever your vice is, let go of it so it will let go of you.
Failure is not an option.
Here's the thing... I wrote this post last week. I needed it today like nobody's business.
Week Three: Lost 0 lbs Total Loss: 4 lbs
Join me next Wednesday for another edition of Weight Watchers Wednesday.